Thursday, April 23, 2009

Proud Papa

Joel has found a kindred spirit in our youngest son, Ezra. Not only will Ezra chow down on tomatoes (something the rest of our family is hesitant to do) and spicy things, but his newest passion, with the warm weather, is a motorcycle ride with Daddy. He stands, almost unmoving at the end of the driveway, waiting for his turn. When he finally gets up on the back of the cycle, he is grinning from ear to ear and is ready to go for as long as Daddy will ride with him! Joel enjoys how much Ezra loves it. . .and I enjoy watching my man and his son, both grinning from ear to ear.

Sunday, April 19, 2009

She eats

I am home from church today, listening to Pastor David Johnson from Church of the Open Door, and taking care of Evelyn. She didn't really sleep this morning, but that is okay. I think she woke up because she was hungry. She ate a fairly normal amount and I'm so thankful for that. It is so good to see her eating and smiling. I am hopeful that her numbers will be falling on Monday morning. It is exhausting to mull over the "what if" or "what could be wrong." I usually feel like I can release my kids to God's hands, since they belong to Him anyway. But there is always a part of me that wonders and is unsettled. So I wait, feel silly that I am still worried, even though she seems to be getting better and remember that God is El Shaddai, able to supply all my needs. . . no matter what happens.

Thursday, April 16, 2009

I am thankful

It has been quite the two weeks. Evelyn has been sick since Sunday, and I haven't been able to put her down. I am exhausted. But in the midst of it all, there is so much to be thankful for. I am thankful for something that requires me to slow down and hold my little girl who is growing up so fast. I am thankful for the warm weather, for my boys playing together, for family who loves me and helps me, for people who pray for me, for the gift of children, and the challenge of sick children.

I go to see the doctor this afternoon. I hope there are some answers there.

I am most thankful for a God who supplies all that I need and even adds blessings.

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

There will be a day. . .

I try to keep reminding myself that there will be a day where I will be able to finish a task in the time it should take to complete it. That will be the day that I will miss terribly the pitter patter of little feet and a voice calling, "Mommy. . ." Right now it just feels like I will never be caught up, much less complete the things I really should do but can't find the energy to do. It must be the start of spring that makes me think of all the cleaning that should be done. It is a struggle to find the balance of enjoying my kids and taking care of my domain and responsibilities. I don't have it figured out. Josiah has been sick. He went to school today, and ate finally, but tonight he complained that his stomach hurt again and could barely get off the couch to change into his pjs. I'm not sure what it is. His eyes well up with tears when I tell him I'm sorry he's not feeling well and I want to just hold him forever in all his innocence.

Friday, April 3, 2009

Random Observations

1. Before lunch today, Simeon and Ezra were "playing" soccer on the deck. Well, I'm not sure they ever started playing because Simeon had to keep explaining the rules!

2. Ezra's new favorite phrases: "Never ever. . ." As in, "Ezra, eat your beans now please."
"Never ever, Mommy." Then he proceeds to eat them. And his other new phrase is "Super duper. . ." which is followed by whatever he is excited about - "Super duper fast. . .Super duper yummy. . .etc"

3. Josiah spent the time after lunch building another contraption with his blocks. He is very creative with them and can explain how each part works.

4. While Josiah was doing that, his brothers made over 30 trips up and down the deck flight of stairs chasing each others frisbees.

5. Josiah's recent prayer at lunchtime: "And thank you God for Evelyn. She brings so much joy to our family."

The kids

We got some great pictures of the kids a few weeks ago - not that I'm prejudice or anything! I'm amazed at how much they have grown up since last summer.